Brianna and I are going out to breakfast/lunch. Writing may happen, it’s always our goal but we rarely get very far with it.
I’m so sleepy today.
The lab tech took 3 vials of blood and I figured out the part I hate the most about getting blood draw, is purely psychological. That is going to make donating blood a lot easier the next time I do it.
I tidied my room up a bit, today, and it’s really nice. I think I’ll take a nap when I get home, and then wash my bedding. I love my bed so much, it’s such a comfortable place.
Curry over rice sounds yummy right now. I know I had it for lunch, but I only ate a third of it, I still have a lot left.
I’m mostly just afraid of rejection, all the time.
Inbox me things that you think about me based upon my blog.
It could be anything from my favorite flavor of tea, or my least favorite color, to my relationship with my father, or the reasons I am still alive. I will answer every assumption publicly.
I’m a bit rough around the edges because I’m exhausted and worn out, but that’s alright because I’m mostly just sleepy, now. The painful bits of exhaustion are seeping away into my mattress. I feel like it shows in this picture — how tired I am.
I’m going to go to bed now because I have to wake up in six hours to go get bloodwork done at my doctor’s.
I have the day off tomorrow and Tuesday! I’m excited!
I felt kind of cute today.
I ate mango shrimp curry for lunch.
And saw one of my coworker’s boyfriends who I adore.
Work was really fun, we were super busy for a Sunday night and it was a little stressful at times, but we were all joking around and keeping each other upbeat. This shift was one of the most fun ones I’ve worked yet, to date.
I had a really good day, today.
I’m going to rewatch Vincent and the Doctor.
It’s been so long without my Doctor.
I have work at 11 until closing so that’s 12 hours minimum, and it isn’t even with my favorite manager.
Who do you ship? From what show/movie/book/video game are they from?
Tw: intake, restriction, calories
Dinner:
1 cup cooked rice [250]
2 servings vegetable spread [120]
2 slices white bread [120]
1.5 vegan burger patties [150]
2 slices american cheese [180]
1 serving sour dots [140]
Total intake: [1060]
Total outtake: [500]
Net: [660]
And washing it down with 24 ounces of water, and some laxatives. Today was really rather horrible, overall. Some customers today called me ugly and they were all laughing about it, and I got really jealous of this pretty girl I work with, and it was a negatively asdfghjkl; sort of day. I got into a huge fight with my mother, stormed out of my house to take a walk to cool down, and everything has been okay since then.
Considering not fasting until Monday. Considering a small meal.
I don’t like how anxious this is making me.
This just happened on skype. Little things are good.
- Jacob: Meliss.
- Missy: she's not here right now
- Missy: please leave a message
- Missy: (i actually have to go get dressed)
- Jacob: Hey Missy. It's Jake. I was writing and I was thinking about you. I saw that you're having a non-esxisting day, so I was thinking... why don't you come exist in my pocket? It's a spacious place that's a seperate dimension, so if you come inside, you technically won't exist in this universe. So yeah. It's your choice, you know? I'll be here and my pocket will be availible if you just say the word. Okay, then. I love you. uhhh bye.
- Jacob: End of new message.
I do not have the energy to be a person today.
I, therefore, will not be a person today.
I am going to pretend, and hope that I’m on grill for my shift because grill is the most isolated position I can work in.
It’s just a four hour shift, it’ll be okay.
The other day a coworker was telling me a story about when she went to see a particular movie in theaters. She was telling me about her bad experience with the other people in the audience disrupting her.
I stopped myself from saying why my experience wasn’t bad before but it is now, when I went to see that particular movie.
I really don’t like movie theaters. I don’t like going to movie theaters. There are so many bad memories, so many terrible connotations with them, and I just really don’t like them. I hate when I have to go to them, and sometimes I make exceptions for people or movies, but not often, and if I go to the movies with someone, they’re special.
Cinemas are stressful for me, and right now there is only one person who I will willingly walk into a theater with, without needing to mentally prepare myself. Fortunately, she doesn’t like cinemas, either.
